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tired.im in my lovely warm bed typing this out on my sexy mobile. :)
you know im so sick of the way i let people treat me. i let them say mean things. i let them walk all over me. i let them do whatever the fuck they want. whatever will make them happy. but not anymore. im not letting it happen now.
you may think im useless. you may think im lazy. i don't deny it but you all don't have a mother fucking clue how i feel. i have medical problems which you all clearly don't understand. its not easy. yes its my fault i feel this shit all the time but whatever.
my baby is one of the few.. one of the two, her and nikki, have supported me through the past few months. my baby has from the day we met til now. i love her so much for it. i love you Igusi baby. :) thankyou. :) both of you. :)
i've had this big change in me this past month or so. even my parents see it. im a walking corpse. im dead but alive. i have no energy to do anything. it sucks so bad. sigh. what can i do. i hope things will get better soon.
i like how much free time i will have now with no stress! well theres a bit of stress but after all my tests and stuff there will be no stress and i cant wait for that! :) in less than 3 weeks (hopefully) i will be stress free! :) so i can spend that time with my two beautiful girls! :) my sis and my igs<3 :)
you know i'd like to have a job.. with iga! it would be so much fun hehe! buttt hmm idk if i could handle it buttt you dont know til you try so who knows maybe we could get a job in the same place! ;)
you know i hate when people think that they have some sort of control over me, telling me what i can and cant do, what i should and shouldnt do, i hate it when my mum does it. im 22 this year im not 5. even 5 year olds probably have more freedom than i do.
whatever, i dont care what my so called mother thinks of me or anyone in my life she can get lost, as can everyone else who bitch about me or try control me. i've had just about enough of you all! specially my mum! ergh.
right for now thats all im saying, so sweet dreams.
remember, dreams too, do come true..
xoxo affy girl ;)
you know im so sick of the way i let people treat me. i let them say mean things. i let them walk all over me. i let them do whatever the fuck they want. whatever will make them happy. but not anymore. im not letting it happen now.
you may think im useless. you may think im lazy. i don't deny it but you all don't have a mother fucking clue how i feel. i have medical problems which you all clearly don't understand. its not easy. yes its my fault i feel this shit all the time but whatever.
my baby is one of the few.. one of the two, her and nikki, have supported me through the past few months. my baby has from the day we met til now. i love her so much for it. i love you Igusi baby. :) thankyou. :) both of you. :)
i've had this big change in me this past month or so. even my parents see it. im a walking corpse. im dead but alive. i have no energy to do anything. it sucks so bad. sigh. what can i do. i hope things will get better soon.
i like how much free time i will have now with no stress! well theres a bit of stress but after all my tests and stuff there will be no stress and i cant wait for that! :) in less than 3 weeks (hopefully) i will be stress free! :) so i can spend that time with my two beautiful girls! :) my sis and my igs<3 :)
you know i'd like to have a job.. with iga! it would be so much fun hehe! buttt hmm idk if i could handle it buttt you dont know til you try so who knows maybe we could get a job in the same place! ;)
you know i hate when people think that they have some sort of control over me, telling me what i can and cant do, what i should and shouldnt do, i hate it when my mum does it. im 22 this year im not 5. even 5 year olds probably have more freedom than i do.
whatever, i dont care what my so called mother thinks of me or anyone in my life she can get lost, as can everyone else who bitch about me or try control me. i've had just about enough of you all! specially my mum! ergh.
right for now thats all im saying, so sweet dreams.
remember, dreams too, do come true..
xoxo affy girl ;)
lonely.